After going to college for 3 ½ years I learned one thing:

School…has never been for me. I don’t ever remember liking school. I’m not sure I have always hated it the way I do now but I’m pretty sure I NEVER liked it. As the spring semester of 2009 began I decided I was NOT going to go back. Mid way through fall ’08 I was studding for a Biology exam and seriously wished I was dead instead of studding. I don’t and won’t live my life that way. I dropped the class and finished out the semester.

I grew up in Westlake, and for those of you who know the community and school, going to college isn’t even a question. Westlake has one of the lowest dropout rates and pretty sure one of the highest high school to college ratios in the country. (Don’t quote me on this but I’m pretty sure, its got to be up there) I never thought about not going to college. Once Jr. year started it was nothing but picking out colleges and studding for the SAT. I was excited about going to college; my dad had agreed to let me go to a school in California, my dream since we had moved from Cali. I was excited to finally move out, be on my own, live in a dorm, meet new friends and move on with my life. School in Cali didn’t work out so I came back to the prestigious University of Texas, hook’em (I still got Texas pride!). While in Cali I decided being a lawyer wasn’t for me and that I wanted to work in the fashion industry. I love fashion, always have and as far as I can see always will. UT had an apparel program so that’s what I was going to major in. Textiles and Apparel with an emphasis in Retail Merchandise and a minor in Business Foundations. Now here starts my rant on the Textiles program and what drove my hatred of school. For reasons beyond my knowledge the Textiles program is in the school of Natural Science at UT. This wouldn’t be that big of a deal if the degree requirements weren’t so absurd. We are required to take Chem 1 and 2 and a chem lab, Bio 1 and 2, and calculus all FOR MAJORS. For those of you that don’t know what that means; the classes are freaking hard! We don’t get to take the general chem and bio classes we are taking the ones pre med and bio chemist take!

Typical first day of class conversation:

Student A: Hey, so what are you studding to be?

Student B: I’m studding to be a doctor; I’m thinking a heart surgeon. How about you?

Student A: I wanna work in retail. Hopefully have my own line someday. Be a buyer or just have my own little boutique.

Student B: Oh…why are you taking this class?

Student A: It’s required. Would you like to study together sometime?

Student B: Uhh…sure…here give me your number, and I’ll call you…

Student B inter-monolog: (…no way in heck am I studding with that girl!)

Typical first conversation between student and prof after first test:

Student: Prof. B, I tried really really hard and I don’t know why I did so bad. I studied everyday and I still failed.

Prof: maybe you should think about switching majors. Being a doctor isn’t for everyone. What do you want to do with your life.

Student: I wanna sell clothes.

Prof: oh, why are you taking this class?

Student: I have too.

Prof: oh, guess you just got to try a little harder then.

Don’t get me wrong, I get that you can’t just breeze though college. It takes effort and endurance. But people that want to work in fashion and people that want to heal others don’t use the same part of their brain. I can promise you there are geniuses out there that no matter how hard they tried couldn’t make it in the fashion world. And that’s where I am. No matter how hard or long I study I am NEVER going to get it. I spent close to $3000 on tutoring for calculus. Did I learn anything, no, did I pass, yes…but I’m pretty sure my teacher just felt bad. My science teachers weren’t as nice.

My textiles classes weren’t any better. Sure they weren’t as hard, they were a joke! Just to give you an idea, in one class we watched a “documentary” on retail everyday. We had 2 projects that took one class day each and was performed in groups. We took one test because the university required that she administer a test, it was done in groups, open book, open note, the notes were ones that she gave us and what was on the test was circled in the notes! To give you an idea of the professor’s mentality: twice I didn’t turn in projects that were worth at least 25% of my grade and I still received an A in the classes.

After going to college for 3 ½ years I learned one thing: college is not for me, right now. I was learning nothing at UT. I was simply going thought the motions of a student. I think one day I might go back but my mind set must first change. Right now I see a degree as an $80,000 piece of paper that has no meaning to me. I’ve got a job that I excel in. I have full benefits. But most importantly I’m happy and enjoying life.

xxLL

Hey there!

Well it’s been a while since I have last blogged and I’m back, for now. A lot has happened since I was last on. I have halted school, possibly found love, gotten a promotion, lost friends, made friends and have never felt more content with my life.  Posting to follow.

xxLL

i CAN do this!

so monday night came the realization that i was going to fail chemistry this summer, well maybe not fail but drop.  my tutor (my ex) was tutoring me and said “you would be lucky to get a 40 tomorrow.”  while this might seem harsh, it wasn’t.  i understood nothing!  we decided it would be best if i tried again next summer because there is no way i could pass the class if i failed this test (i had already failed the first one), and it was clear passing wasn’t an option.  there was slight hope though.  if i got better than a 60, then i would continue to try to pass. 

guess what?!?! i guessed my way to a 60.  after taking the test i figured there was no way i would get above a 40.  apparently God saw other wise.   

so now i MUST pass! my life for the next month is going to consist of nothing but chemistry.  i was given a second chance to try harder and im taking it.  this second part is taught by another teacher and i think it will be better.  i can read what he writes and understand him.  the first teacher had horrible writing and a thick accent that got worse when she was excited about whatever she was saying.  fresh start.   

let me also just say that this isn’t chemistry for non-majors, this is chemistry for majors.  that means every one in my class wants to be a doctor (of some sort) then there is me and about 4 other girls who want to make people look better.  apparently UT got confused that making people better and making people look better required the same base knowledge. 

i can pass! i will pass! i MUST pass!

and at the end of this horrible nightmare i will be on my flight to San Francisco, that i just booked!

a letter undelivered

“trust. i wish i could trust you.  i wish i felt i really knew you.  i want to believe everything you ever said.  but now with things the way they are…how could i?  they seem nothing but words with nothing behind them.  no true feelings, no true actions, nothing.  emptiness.  that’s how i feel now.  from here on out always second guessing.  i wish i wouldn’t, i wish i could believe, but this has happen to many times now.  please don’t do this again. do you even hurt?  have you given what you said a second thought?  i know it was for the best.  i deserve the best.” 

-a letter undelivered

Get it, Got it

Today Michael Kors offered me the Sales Supervisor position and I gladly accepted.  I am so excited and can’t wait! This is my first of hopefully many promotions with this company. 

ps. Heather’s last day was yesterday. tear.

Michael Kors vs Lacoste

Two weeks ago one of the Sales Supervisors at Michael Kors put in her two weeks notice.  I immediately knew i wanted the job and set up an interview with my manager (taking place tomorrow).  This past Monday my old job (Lacoste) called and wanted to see if I was interested in a Sales Supervisor position.  While neither one of them has officially offered me the job I am pretty sure they both will.  I meet with the manager at Lacoste to day and he was pretty excited while talking with me and said I was his number one choice.  Granted my interview with MK goes well tomorrow i will then be faced with a tough decisions.  Money isn’t really a factor.  I love the people I work with at MK, they have become my friends and i couldn’t image being in a better work environment.  I love to sell clothes, and while we do have some clothes at MK, it is mainly a handbag and accessory boutique.  When i worked at Lacoste is was so much fun and so easy to sell the clothing…it’s polos in different colors, guys ”need” polos, and we’ve got’em.  I am not sure which company has more growth opportunity they both seem to have their ups and downs.  I have seen internal promotions from MK and haven’t seen it with Lacoste, that’s not to say it doesn’t happen.  I am not sure what i want to do the rest of my life but i know i love the industry.  Clothes vs Accessories, Friends vs Co-workers,  Structured vs Relaxed, Lacoste vs Michael Kors 

who will win me?     

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions…

hello world!

I have been journaling at night lately and have found it very therapeutic.  so i have decided to give online blogging a try…again. 

Best of One World

Today began with my alarm clock going off every 20 minutes. At 6:55 I finally got out of bed. I was suppose to get up around 5 and finish my first design assignment, needless to say that didn’t happen. As I took Tuscany outside the weather was about 40 and raining. Not optimal going to class weather. So I made an executive decision and decided to skip my first class and finish my assignment, shower and look presentable for school, this normally doesn’t happen. All went well in finishing my project and I didn’t look half bad.
My first class today was English and it was a very cold windy trek from my condo. Kellan is in that class, we cant sit together because we have semi assigned seats. Yes I go to one of the largest university and we have assigned seats like elementary school, and yes the class has 300+ people. Don’t ask, I don’t understand. My Prof. is really cool, besides that. Not sure what we talked about today I only remember 2 things: 1) William Bird Rodgered his wife twice in one day. 2) my Prof’s favorite quote…well I can’t remember it verbatim, but it was something along the lines of having sex on a pool table. Moving on…
The Hannah Montana concert is tonight is Austin. I wish I could go. I do LOVE my Hannah Montana. However, I like keeping $500 in my wallet more. It amazes me how much money parents have shelled out so their kid can go see a concert their kids probably won’t remember. While I do realize there is a huge demand it’s just insane to think to spend that much money for a concert. The most I could fathom spending on a concert would be $250 for a Pearl Jam ticket. And even that’s a stretch. I guess I just don’t appreciate music enough. But neither do the kids going to the concert tonight. While Miley is adorable she just isn’t one of the top musicians. She is however, apart of the wonderful world of Disney. And the wonderful marketing that Disney promotes. And this is why her tickets are in the upper hundreds. Oh well! My life will go one living in just one world.