Got It All Wrong…

I rarely think I have made a wrong decision.  Something might not be the best decision but I don’t believe in wrong decisions.  Life will happen and that is how it is suppose to be.  Recent decisions are leading me to a bit of heartache.  Questioning everything I have said, thought, felt.  Change is happening so fast, so rapidly I can’t warp my head around what is to come.  I use to be able to see years and years down the road and now I can barely see the end of this week.  I am not sure what is happening in my life.  Where I am going.  Where I want to be.  Who I want to be.  Who I am.  I have always been filled with answers and now I seem to be in discovery.  I never understood how someone could know nothing about themselves and now I am that person.  I hate it and don’t know how to handle it.  Deep down I know it will all work out.  It has to.  This has to be right, I know its right, but it feels so wrong.

And I could’ve done much better for you

Yeah I could’ve done much better for you

But you could’ve done much better for me, too

-Wakey! Wakey!

Seal my heart and break my pride

I’ve nowhere to stand and now nowhere to hide

Align my heart, my body, my mind

To face what I’ve done and do my time

-Mumford & Sons

This is my heart on a platter for you…

(sappy, pathetic, overdone, so what?)