An entire day at home
I did not leave my house today. Can’t remember the last time I spent the whole day home without leaving. It was nice. I literally stayed in my pjs all day and cleaned and went through old stuff. I did laundry and went through my closet to weed out the old stuff. I gathered at least 50 pieces of clothing I don’t need, there are more, but I can’t part just yet. I watched some of my shows on dvr, laid in bed while listening to music/thunder and played with Tuscany. I wish I could do this more often, but work takes me out and so does random task.
I like being alone. I think I have missed that not living at home. For 5 years a roommate has pretty much always been home or I’ve been with a boy friend. I have severely missed me time. I don’t really do anything that different but there is something about being the only one that is comforting. I believe this to be a direct result of being an old child of divorced working parents. I have always had ample alone time. When I was little I would come home after school and have at least a few hours to myself. My parents always trusted me to stay alone and would leave me to run errands and such. Once I was six teen my dad would go on business trips and let me stay alone. I grew to truly love being slightly isolated. Many people always have to have someone around. They can’t stand the thought of having to entertain themselves. Hearing their own thoughts and being with themselves. I find peace in it.
i. love. you. forever.
You and I walking slowly. Hand in hand. Footprints in the sand. Watch the wind as it plays. Throwing shadows across your face. The sky was so blue. Your eyes so green. The air glittering. So sudden, so swift. Love came to us. Just like a gift. I lived here, you lived far away. Our lives called us back, no we could not stay. With a sad sort of smile you took my hand. Said while we’re apart you hope I understand that…
You’ll be holding me
And I’ll be holding you
Through those long nights
My love will be pulling you through
When you see the stars
Pretend they’re my arms
When you feel the air
That is me kissing you there
Say you love me
And I will say I love you
No distance could ever make that untrue
When I’m far away
I’ll reach through time and space
When you hear the wind
You’ll hear me saying
I love you forever
Fast forward our love story. I still remember that day. Her small precious face. You stared into her eyes. Hypnotized by her smile. But your job meant you had to travel. But we weren’t ready for you to go. You held our daughter with a sad sort of smile. Said while we’re apart I want you to know that…
You’ll be holding me
And I’ll be holding you
Through those long nights
My love will be pulling you through
When you see the stars
Pretend they’re my arms
When you feel the air
That is me kissing you there
Say you love me
And I will say I love you
No distance could ever make that untrue
When I’m far away
I’ll reach through time and space
When you hear the wind
You’ll hear me saying
I love you forever
God forbid there’ll come a day. When the light in my eyes fades away. But from your hearts I will not go. No bounds shall my spirit know, cause.
You’ll be holding me
And I’ll be holding you
Through those long nights
My love will be pulling you through
When you see the stars
Pretend they’re my arms
When you feel the air
That is me kissing you there
Say you love me
And I will say I love you
No distance could ever make that untrue
When I’m far away
I’ll reach through time and space
When you hear the wind
You’ll hear me saying
I love you forever
by Jewel
